I’m really hoping I can somehow go to California this summer. I have never really wanted summer break but I really do right now. I want to run away from it all. I’m not the same person I used to be. This place means so much to me and I love everyone that I have met from being out here but with that comes so much pain. I feel this deep pain everyday because of the constant reminders of everything bad that has happened to me. I cant shake any of it anymore. I give up. I don’t want to try. I’m just broken and I need to find myself again.
