For a long time I didn’t think I was ready for a relationship. Everyone who came along didn’t measure up to how he made me feel. As strong as my feelings were I’ve been wishing lately that I never even had the chance to learn his name. He was probably the worst thing that could happen to me.  I decided that you are poisonous and you hold me back and I don’t want any kind of connection to you whatsoever.

With that being said, I’m really confused. I think I’m starting to re-develop feelings for someone. But more so than it was before. I see how much he cares about me and how good friends we are. But I’m scared to take that chance. I’m scared of being hurt like last time and I’m scared of hurting him. I’m starting to think he is the right thing for me, but is it too late? Last night felt different. I told myself not to stay over but I did anyway. I just wanted to lay with him and laugh and be comfortable, it felt good. It’s not like I’m forcing myself to move on, I feel like I have. I see the difference between someone who genuinely cares about me and someone who just pretended to. Half of me is saying “Cassie, what have you got to lose?” and the other half is finding every excuse not to make this work. I wish I just had the answer I was looking for. I just have to see where this whole thing takes us.

  1. conozco said: good luck bb
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